The Human Journey from Self to Self: Inner States of Consciousness

A human being does not change in a single day.

This text explores the inner states of consciousness as a human being moves from one state of being to another.

In Sufism, these passages are called stations or stages. In numerology, they are whispered through the language of numbers.

Inner States of Consciousness

At İnsan-ı Marifet, numbers do not tell us what will happen, but where we are.

1 — The Point of Being | “I am here”

The human journey does not begin with a claim. It begins with a moment of recognition.

1 is not the ego. 1 is a state of being that has not yet learned to defend itself.

Like a newborn. It does not explain itself. It simply exists.

Within Sufi understanding, this is the state of witnessing before the word “I” is spoken.

At this point, there is nothing to prove. There is only breath.

2 — The Awakening of the Heart | Feeling

When existence is recognized, the first response is to feel.

2 is the opening of the heart. Joy, vulnerability, longing.

At this stage, one quietly realizes: “I am not alone.”

There is no meaning yet. Only contact.

Like falling in love for the first time… You don’t know why, but your heart begins to move.

3 — The Voice of the Mind | Seeking Meaning

When the heart begins to feel, the mind steps in. This is where 3 unfolds.

One tries to explain:

• To oneself

• To others

• To life

Thoughts multiply. Questions increase.

In the Sufi tradition, this is the mind interpreting the heart.

Yet sometimes, one becomes lost while trying to explain what is felt.

4 — The Trial of the World | Carrying

Feeling is no longer enough. Understanding is no longer enough.

Life responds: “Can you live this?”

4 is the gate of the body and time:

• Waking up each morning

• Continuing what was started

• Bearing responsibility

• Enduring

In Sufism, this is where the discipline of the self (nafs) begins.

Everyone grows tired at this gate.

5 — The Breaking Point | Reaction

As the burden increases,a person’s true identity comes into view.

5 makes itself felt precisely at this breaking point.

This is not a test, but a field of reflex.

When pressure rises, what do you do?

• Do you escape?

• Harden?

• Freeze?

• Or remain in flow?

Trauma settles here, because awareness momentarily withdraws.

In Sufi understanding, this state is described as:

“The self moves into protection.”

6 — Bond and Burden | Love or Attachment?

After 5, one either disconnects or binds.

6 is the gate of attachment.

It becomes family. It becomes partnership. It becomes responsibility.

But there is a subtle line:

• Do you carry love?

• Or do you carry weight?

At this gate, Sufism asks: “Are you loving — or merely holding on?”

7 — Turning Inward | Silence

At a certain point, one reaches saturation. Speech diminishes.

The need to explain dissolves on its own.

7 arrives.

This is not loneliness. It is friendship with silence.

For the first time, one observes:

• Their emotions

• Their reactions

• Their attachments

In Sufi understanding, this is contemplation (tafakkur).

8 — Gathering | Inner Strength

What is seen at 7 is gathered at 8.

8 is not strength displayed outwardly. It is the inner headquarters being established.

Now one can:

• Set boundaries without shouting

• Carry without being crushed

• Be strong without becoming rigid

True power, therefore,begins with self-healing.

9 — Letting Go | Consent (Rida)

And one day, a realization arises: “I no longer have to carry this.”

9 is not giving up. It is completion.

Here, one gently withdraws from:

• Being right

• Explaining

• Holding on

In Sufi language, this state is called rida — consent.

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When Words Fall Silent, State Begins to Speak

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A person does not pass through these gates only once. Throughout life, we enter, exit, and return again.

At İnsan-ı Marifet, numbers ask one thing:

Which state are you in right now?

And perhaps the deeper question is this:

What grip must be loosened in order to pass through this state?

İnsan-ı Marifet follows not knowledge, but state.

Because a human being knows themselves only through lived experience.